Monthly Archives: August 2011

Who is having the best day?

ME!

I’ve had two friends stop by and visit, one planned, one a surprise. One brought flowers, a hug, and powerful encouraging words. One brought scentsy and understanding. Between flowers and scentsy. my house smells amazing!

My heart is full of love and joy, I am even more blessed then I realized. Those who don’t appreciate me are gone, those who do are still here. Who could ask for more?

Well….a job would be nice.

Oh yeah, I got that too 🙂

Out with the old, in with the new. Life is changing and I couldn’t be more excited.


A fork in the road.

Sometimes in life you travel with a companion. Then you come upon a fork in the road. Up until this point you have traveled together, sometimes for a short time, sometimes years. You’ve weathered storms, embarked upon path’s you may have never chosen if you were alone, and shared many stories and laughs along the way.

Here you are. A fork. A decision. Do you continue to travel together? Do you go separate ways and see what life has in store for you?

Traveling together seems the easy choice. It’s what you’re used to. It’s comfortable. It’s a way of life for you if you truly love that person.

However, going separate ways gives you a chance to appreciate and notice parts of life’s paths you may not have your eyes open to seeing. It may be a scarier adventure, but sometimes you just know it’s time.

Going down separate paths doesn’t mean you hate that person, or even dislike them. It simply means you have another adventure to take, one that doesn’t include them as such an influential part of your journey.

And who knows, your paths may cross again soon and you’ll find yourself back in step with them like separating never happened.

Either way, it’s your life. It’s one big chose your own adventure story. You might not know the outcome, but you pick the path.


Inspiration for the day!

Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.


Meet me at the cornfield. 1 hour.

Ok, replace cornfield with Ridgecrest Community Park. It’s where we always end up anyway. No surprise this was the locations my friends decided to gather to mourn one of our own. Although I rarely have the opportunity to see these friends I’ve known before I could even ride a bike, we’re the type of group that will drop everything when push comes to shove. Tonight we did just that. We all showed up to the same spot we’ve been going to for years, with beer we bought legally (ah, the good ol’ days lol), and hugged.

I hang out with many people, from many groups. I have my core group of friends, a few random here and there friends, and my childhood friends. I’m so blessed! I love each of them so much!

I spent a good portion of the time with my old school friends reminiscing and catching up with 2 wonderful people. I truly needed that.

Sadie and Brandon, if you ever stumble upon my blog and read this, I love you both tremendously! Life would not have been the same had I not had you both in it. I don’t even want to imagine that! Thank you for the years and years behind our friendship and of course, the years to come. From the bottom of my heart, I truly love you both!

Anyway. Moral of the story. I have friends. I love them. If you are reading this you are probably one of them. And I love you for it.

Yes, I’m simply rambling about love now. However losing a loved one will do that to you. So don’t blame me. Just accept my love 🙂


Sisters.

When I was younger I wanted a sister so bad. I saw other people with sisters, it seemed wonderful. Over the years I slowly gained sister’s of my own. My Dad remarried and they had 3 kids, the oldest 2 being girls. My mom took in a friend of my brother and I welcomed it every time she called me her little sister. My mom remarried and I got a step sister out of it. I guess technically now that my mom is again remarried I have more step sisters, but that’s a story for another time, or never. Back to my point! I had 4 sisters! 2 of which were too young to know me (they quickly moved to California and I wasn’t allowed in their lives) and my step sister bullied me. That left me with Juli. I adored her. She painted my nails, introduced me to teriyaki chicken out of a styrofoam container and taught me to appreciate Oprah. She died when I was 17.

I’m naturally drawn to strong women who are older than me. Not by much, just a few years or so. I have a void to fill. It’s as simple as that. I want to have someone older and wiser I can go to for advice or lean upon during hard times. I have two women I have considered a soul sister that fills this need for me. Lisa and Maria (I also have 2 incredible cousin’s I use to fill this void, but they are blood related and therefore stuck with me, although I did wish for both of them to be my sister’s at many points in my younger years lol. Off topic again!).

Back to Lisa and Maria…I have told them both on several occasions they are my older and wiser soul sister. I go to them for advice, I’m there when they need it. I can ramble on and on and they will listen with this look that says “it’s ok, I’ve been there, you too will heal” and I love it. I need it. Yesterday I spent with a women I’ve known for a little bit now and always felt a pull towards. She is so strong and we share many value’s. As we walked in step with easy conversation about life we agreed on yet again the same belief and she said “it’s like you’re my soul sister”! I felt my heart smile. I couldn’t believe someone I felt a connection with not only felt the same way, but was using the term I use! We went out to lunch and learned we’re both allergic to onions. Yup, we’re bonded for life now!

I love being around people older than me (from my soul sisters to the elders at church). I love talking about current events, politics, religion, good books, love, heartache, kids, and crazy stories of our past. I try to strike up conversation with others close to me about such topics and although they go along with what I’m currently rambling on and on about, it always dies quickly. I want to talk about these things for hours! I want to truly engage so deep that we can’t believe time has flown by so quickly. I want to hear others thoughts and feelings about the topics I’m exploring at the moment, I love learning that way. For some reason when I’m with people any amount of years older than me, this conversation happens easier. I don’t know why that is. I wish I did however, then I could apply it to the people I speak with on a regular basis.

I think I’m off topic again.

Correction…I’m completely off topic again.

Back to my older and wiser (less emphasis on older, more emphasis on wiser!) soul sisters. Thank you. Thank you for taking a void I have in my life, soul, and heart and finding a way to fill it. Not only that, but accepting me as a part of your life too. For listening to me ramble. For laughing at the things I say that show the years between us. When you do that it shows me I have more growing to do, and I get excited. Thank you for letting me feel so strongly about you and our friendship. Thank you for not being overwhelmed by me. I’m just excited to have you. Thank you for knowing that well before I told you.

Lisa, Maria, and Teresa…Thank you for being my soul sisters and giving me someone to truly look up to and be inspired by.


My advice.

I often think of this blog as a way to leave a piece of myself behind for my kids. They will get to log on and read my thoughts, feelings, and emotions anytime they want. I hope they find comfort in my words and feel like I’m there, saying it to them. There’s so much I would want to tell them, but here’s what I can think of off the top of my head…

1. Events will take place and people you don’t like might be there. Try to be the bigger person. Sometimes that means pretending they aren’t there. Sometimes it means avoiding the event so you don’t say things you will regret. Either way, figure out which one is the high road for you, and take it. They aren’t worth getting upset over, that’s why you aren’t friends with them.

2. Try new things. Don’t be afraid of change. Branch out. You only get one chance at a great life, make sure to make it count. This includes food. I haven’t raised my kids to love food, I hope one day they find out how great it can be.

3. Negativity is easy to hold on to. Continually practice the art of letting it go and only remembering the good. You will find greater peace this way.

4. Believe in something. Believe in God. Believe in a higher power. I don’t care what it is. But believing in something greater than you is a useful tool in dark times. Dark times will happen. Having some sort of faith can help you know you will get through it. Do your best to believe in yourself as well.

5. Friends will come and go. So will loved one’s. Let yourself feel the heartache. This is how you know it was real. Do not dwell in it however. Find the lesson to be learned (yes, there is always a lesson) and move on. Greater things always await you. If you are stuck dwelling, those things will pass you by.

6. Your opinion matters. It may not be the same as other’s, that doesn’t mean it doesn’t count. Some people don’t know this however. Hopefully one day they too will understand it though.

7. Do not be judgemental. Everyone has a reason for acting the way they do. Sometimes its taught. Sometimes it’s a defense mechanism. Sometimes its simple ignorance. However, it’s not your place to judge them for it.

8. You can only hold yourself accountable for your own actions. That’s enough responsibility for one person. But always hold yourself accountable, it’s okay to admit you made a mistake. That’s how you grow as a person.

9. Find a reason to laugh every single day. Whether it’s a tv show, comic strip, joke, or youtube video. Laughter is out there. Make sure to get in as much of it as possible. It truly is the best medicine.

10. Give as much of yourself as you can to those in need. Whether it’s a bag of food on the doorstep of a loved one, a shoulder to cry on, donated toys to children less fortunate, or helping a friend with a large task, there’s always a way to give. It not only makes you a better person, it humbles you and gives your life more purpose.

Ok, that’s it for now. Savannah and Jo, if you come across this one day, know without a shadow of a doubt, I love you more than words can express.


Harry Potter.

I came here to blog about my thoughts regarding this wonderful topic. However, I’m failing to find the words. Only those who follow the series would understand but it’s the rest of you I am pleading to.

Find a way to see it, preferably in 3D.

Minus the Harry Potter aspect, it is the most visually incredible movie I have ever seen. The 3D was incomparable to any other movie out there. Like if movies could talk it would get in a verbal fight with other 3D movies and all it would have to say is “schooled”. Other 3D movies would hang their heads in shame. They would know with that one word, they lost. There is simply no comparison.

Everyone should learn quickly what they can about the previous Harry Potter movies and/or books and see it asap. My heart is heavy for those who won’t. You do not understand what you are missing out on.

Minus the 3D aspect, it was a wonderful final movie. Of course like any book turned movie, there are missing parts. But not enough for me to complain about, I hardly even noticed. I think the creators hit all the important parts and I’m grateful they skipped out on the horrific deaths of those we’ve come to love.

With every new movie it’s always felt like getting together with an old friend. You sit for a couple of hours and catch up. You see how they’ve grown. You learn what adventure’s they have been up to. I’ve truly enjoyed these visit’s with the character’s from the series. You grow to know and love them. I’m sad our time has come to an end. The movie gave impeccable closure, but a part of me will always hope to see them again.

I cried a lot. I cried through the happiness, and through the sadness. The parts where my heart literally felt like it was breaking for my dear friends Harry, Hermione, Ron and their loved one’s. I cried knowing it was over. I watched the entire credit’s. I wasn’t ready to let go, I don’t know if I ever will be.

If you haven’t begun the adventure into these movies and/or books, I hope one day something or someone comes along to change you mind. It’s not a movie about silly kids and their magic. There are kids, yes. There is magic, yes. However, those 2 things are nothing in comparison to everything else involved. It’s about unconditional love and friendship. It’s about heartache, maturing, hard decisions, and finding yourself. You become lost in a world you wish you could be apart of, even if you don’t care for those silly things, I didn’t at first. You don’t question anything. There are no “why” or “what” questions. It just is. You always wish for more.

I guess it’s a world you only understand if you are in the group of followers. I wish everyone was in the group. I want everyone out there to experience this wonderfully impressive series.

I don’t think what I’ve said even comes close to conveying how I feel right now. But it was worth the shot.