Monthly Archives: September 2011


I’m again finding myself in a sour mood. I want to vent about all the things on my mind. As this goes against the character I believe in having (at least for myself), instead, I will once again take the opportunity to blog about things that are making me happy in hopes that I can change my focus and energy. Here goes.

When I wave at those in support of political parties they support. You know, the random people on corners with signs. They love it when you wave. Their happy smiles make me happy.

My new work friends. It’s like the universe took all the non-jealous/caddy/competitive women and stuck them in one office. Amazing.

White chocolate mochas with white coffee made at 140 degrees. I had one today. I’m still happy about this decision.

My dad’s great bill of health.

Daily chat’s with Amy.

My smart dog. He knows so much more than any dog I’ve ever known. It’s incredible. And often creepy. But always makes me happy.

Random surprise unprovoked text’s from my friends to let me know they’re thinking of me (you know who you are, thanks for that today).

Being there for other friends. It really does make me feel like you (I’m talking to you specifically lol) value my friendship when you vent to me in the heat of the moment. I do it a lot. You rarely do. Although I never want you to feel pain, it makes me smile when you come to me to vent. I love you always.

Pregnant people. Newborns. Waddlers with chubby cheeks.

Jo’s riddles. Here is one from today: “Mom, here’s a riddle. What’s the worst part of the day to watch a scary movie?”. Me, “hmm, I don’t know”. Jo, “at night”. Hahaha, she cracks me up!

When Sav and I watch Modern Family and she snuggles up with me.

Ok, it worked. I’m smiling. Yay!

Off to watch Sons. Heck yes. Here’s my favorite part of the show.

Maybe it’s not my favorite part, the writing is actually damn incredible. But my dog is named after him so he’s basically family.


Today I pray.

Today I pray for…..

Sick children everywhere and the parents caring for them.

A really good friend who’s had a rough week (including but not limited to a cracked rib, concussion, and totaled car).

A safe flight to and from San Diego for my other me 🙂

A safe flight to and from Seattle for one of my most favorite people ever. I also pray she has a wonderful time and the sun stays present for her visit.

Savannah having a wonderful birthday weekend, she’s officially 26(ish) hours away from being a 12-year-old.

Another friend who cryptically told me he’s having kind of a hard time.

A step-mom I care about who doesn’t have it as easy as stepmoms should, not to mention I don’t think she ever gets as much credit as she deserves (makes me wonder if we are all being too hard on Cinderella’s stepmom, we never got her side of the story after all).

Honestly, as I sit here thinking of all the people I love and their struggles, and all the people I don’t even know and their struggles, my heart hurts. The list could go on and on. However, I’ll leave it at that. For now.

At least I have some happy things to pray about too.

Like sunshine. I’m definitely praying for more sunshine.


Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery.

A few of you will know where I’m going with this (gotta love my wine induced emails lol).

Always be a first-rate version of yourself, instead of a second-rate version of somebody else.  ~Judy Garland

If God had wanted me otherwise, He would have created me otherwise.  ~Johann von Goethe

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.  ~Dr. Seuss

I grew up feeling like the odd one out, awkward, and naive. As a grown up I’ve definitely had many experiences teaching me and molding me into the person I am today. Still often the odd one out, but I’ve found confidence in that. Instead of feeling awkward, I do my best to embrace being a (very) unique individual. I’ve found peace in that. Sometimes it makes other’s not understand me, but those people aren’t meant to be in my life. There’s solace in knowing it all happens for a reason, no matter how much it might hurt.

I see so much of myself in Savannah and I pray that one day she too is able to take her odd quirks and awkwardness, and realize how unique she is, and how being unique is such a blessing.


I’ve always admitted that when it comes to anything on a technology realm, I’m slow, and I’m in no rush to change that quirk lol! Once I finally understand it, I’m always the last. I like things simple, predictable, and common. I had my first flip phone cell for 3 years before I had to upgrade. I didn’t choose to, I actually had to, the damn thing broke. I’ve been invited to Google+ a few times now, and quickly send the email to my trash folder. I was one of the last people I knew to get a Facebook since I had kinda sorta mastered MySpace. You get the point.

Every time Facebook has another update, I cringe. I feel like it happens every time I’ve finally figured out the last update. I know I shouldn’t complain since it’s just Facebook, but it’s still annoying!

Alas, I will continue forward with the Facebook updating. After all, the only constant in life is change (thanks for that B lol). And once everyone I know is on Google+, I might join, like a year later 🙂

A very wonderful day!

Ever have one of those days where everything goes right and you are ridiculously happy from start to finish? That’s my day, and I’m loving it! Highlights go as this….

Woke up in a great mood.

The first morning with me officially working and it went as smooth as could be.

Work was wonderful, I’m seriously blessed to have landed this position!

I managed to attend both curriculum nights and met all the teachers.

One teacher had a wonderful Savannah story to share (those are always the best as they are the rarest!).

I won the “Dolce and Gabbana raffle” and came home loaded fun products.

I was welcomed home by a loving family full of hugs and kisses.

Jo lost her very first tooth, finally!!!

Not to mention there were leftovers from dinner to heat up and entertaining blogs to read that are about me, I’m sure on the brains of many, hahaha! Those people are still trying to bring me down, it’s still not working, and I’m loving it. I’m loving the strength and confidence I have found in all this. Every time I think I miss them, I read their mean-nasty-full-of-lies-name-calling-blogs, and smile. I thank the universe for the reminder and go back to enjoying my drama free life. Thanks ladies, keep it up 🙂

Yup, today was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!!

Jealousy is an illness.

Ok, I admit, the photo doesn’t have a lot to do with this blog entry, but it was funny, so I wanted to share it. Anyway :)…..

This is how a conversation went I had this morning….

Savannah “How can you tell when the dryer is done?” (she’s doing her own laundry now)

Me “If it’s running, it’s on. If you loaded it, turned it on, and it’s no longer running, it’s done.”

Savannah “WHY DO YOU TALK TO ME LIKE I’M A BABY?!?!?!?!” and she storms off.

I was confused. That is the answer. Our dryer doesn’t buzz or ding. It just stops. Then I know it’s done. However, she’s in this phase where whatever you say, there must be a mean rude hurtful hidden meaning.

There’s a lot of women who do the same thing, and I think it stems from jealousy. What an awful emotion, and so controlling! I’ve realized lately, if you are a naturally jealous female, the idea of someone who isn’t, just doesn’t make sense. You can tell someone till you are blue in the face that you don’t have a hidden meaning, you really do like their outfit, or the blog you wrote isn’t about them, etc, but it doesn’t matter. Naturally jealous people look for the worst and then will take it out on you, even if you didn’t do it. Heaven forbid you say or do something nice, and you mean it.

I love this saying “What you put up with, you end up with”.

Random, yes. Made sense to me? Yes. It’s my blog so that’s all that matters sometimes 🙂



Have you forgotten-Darryl Worley

I hear people saying we don’t need this war
But, I say there’s some things worth fighting for
What about our freedom and this piece of ground
We didn’t get to keep ’em by backing down
They say we don’t realize the mess we’re getting in
Before you start your preaching let me ask you this my friend

Have you forgotten how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hell
And you say we shouldn’t worry ’bout bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

They took all the footage off my T.V.
Said it’s too disturbing for you and me
It’ll just breed anger that’s what the experts say
If it was up to me I’d show it everyday
Some say this country’s just out looking for a fight
Well, after 9/11 man I’d have to say that’s right

Have you forgotten how it felt that day?
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside going thru a living hell
And we vowed to get the one’s behind bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

I’ve been there with the soldiers
Who’ve gone away to war
And you can bet that they remember
Just what they’re fighting for

Have you forgotten all the people killed?
Yeah, some went down like heroes in that Pennsylvania field
Have you forgotten about our Pentagon?
All the loved ones that we lost and those left to carry on
Don’t you tell me not to worry about bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

Have you forgotten?
Have you forgotten?